I have made a conscious decision today. Well it was made in the loo, at 5AM but that just makes it more deep and thoughtful.
In all the relationships I've had before, I've always jumped the gun and said the three words that people don't dare say, and so has the other guy. It never was special. Never was there a series of romantic dates, silly gifts and love notes that led up to the expression of such a strong emotion. And while that might seem a little fairytale-like, I'd rather have that than have a meaningless expression of love. It was the thoughtlessness of this declaration of so-called love that made it so insignificant a matter and so easy to end. So I have decided that if I ever get into another relationship, I'm going to wait to say it. I want it to be special for him and me. And if he doesn't like that, he can suck it.
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ReplyDeletei think your last relationship was quite meaningful. don't say that. don't be so upset about this stuff or pessimistic. you have my experiences to think of and feel infinitely better about yours. :)
ReplyDeleteIt was meaningful, agreed. But there was no build up to it. I really do want something that grows gradually and beautifully. And you're going to get something like that too. Don't worry :)
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